Melancholia is the beginning and a part of mania . . . . The development of a mania is really a worsening of the disease (melancholia) rather than a change into another disease. ~ Aretaeus of Cappadocia (c. 30-90 AD)
urning now briefly to the transits to the natal chart presented at time of hospitalization when bi-polar was diagonosed, we see:
Saturn harms one who is born by day, and Mars one who is born at night - especially if Mars is in a feminine sign and Saturn in a masculine sign. ~ Dorotheus of Sidon (c. 75 CE)
• Transiting Mars had emerged over the western horizon, directly opposing the Ascendant (head/crown/house of life),
positively increasing the vital physical forces (Sun, heat)
to challenge (square)
natal Moon, then Venus rx, to then oppose Jupiter rx. In addition, Mars is transiting the final degrees of the Jupiter ruled sign of Pisces (feet)
into Aries (head).
• Mars rules the 8th, the house that in modern concepts is connected with generative and regenerative powers, in traditional concepts representing an area of disconnect from the house of life/Ascendant, and in it we find transiting Mercury (ruler of Ascendant/1st and 12th of hospitals)
conjunct Sun and Venus indicative of the crisis, hospitalization, intervention and subsequent diagnosis (Mercury transit opposite natal Saturn).
• Transiting Jupiter elevated, which governs transiting Mars, was raising the temperature and increasing the energy output of natal Mars and in square to transiting Venus-Sun-Mercury.
• To narrow it down a bit further we see waxing Moon showing an increase in the 10th (also a house of the crown, head)
having collected via square the qualities of Mars and directly transferred these on via oppositon to natal Moon-Venus rx to rain down upon natal Jupiter rx in the 1st and oppose natal Mercury.
All in all, this conflagration seems suggestive of a dark night of the soul.
Or, in Shamanic terms, read as a "tear in the crown chakra which is haemorraghing"
... or to put it another way, "a swift spiritual kick to the head that alters your reality forever".
Activation of the Aries-Libra axis references the reciprocity between head (eg. migraines) and kidneys, adrenal gland function, and the haemorrhaging pain that can occur "above" when we accumulate too much stress "below".
Whereas the Taurus-Scorpio axis references the reciprocity between our reproductive organs and throat, eg. thyroid hormone disorders. For example, hormonal imbalances with our reproductive organs resulting from stress, illness, poor dietary and sleep habits can affect our immunity and a sore throat "above" can be indicative accumulated stress internalized "below".
There is evidence of hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal (HPA axis) abnormalities in bipolar disorder due to stress.
The hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis (HPA or HTPA axis), also known as the limbic-hypothalamic-pituitary-adrenal axis (LHPA axis), is a complex set of direct influences and feedback interactions among the hypothalamus (a hollow, funnel-shaped part of the brain), the pituitary gland (a pea-shaped structure located below the hypothalamus), and the adrenal glands (small, conical organs on top of the kidneys). We will take a closer look at this in Part 4.
This particular crisis and hospitalization was triggered in the native's 35th year.
Why then and not before?
The crisis looks like it may have been tipped off as a health issue about 50 days before manifesting, around the time Mars formed an inconjunct aspect (a "disconnect") with the natal Ascendant and then marched on to square natal Saturn posited at a "crisis management"
point - also point of illumination - during its pilgrimage through the 6th before surfacing in the 7th.
Meanwhile, Saturn had been transiting the 4th testing the very foundations of this person's being, applying serious pressure to those sensitive 4th house placements and was retrograding back, increasing pressure, to take a second swipe.
In addition, Saturn had also arced (solar arcs; 1 degree = 1 year) to natal Moon, which can indicate a tough period with feelings of loneliness, isolation, needs being suppressed/repressed, potential losses. Depression. And SA Mars was arcing towards natal Mercury, indicative of an increasingly agitated mental state.
Moon in a cardine that is a feminine sign wards off misfortune for 25 years, in masculine signs 25 months. Venus in a cardine obstructs misfortune for 8 years. ~ Dorotheus
The combination of natal Moon in a feminine cardine joining with natal Venus may have helped in obstructing the manifestation of this health issue for the first 33 years
What we think, how we feel, what we assimilate into our beings at every stage of life and at every level has a cumulative affect that directly impacts our states of being, influencing our physical hormones, genetic make-up, neural processing etc. And the condition of our states of physical being also affects our states of mind.
While we may be genetically predisposed towards certain health conditions according to our individual make-up, it takes much more than a predisposition to bring it into fruition.
When considering stress, and habits established to combat it or escape it, perhaps its worthwhile to keep in mind the lunar cycle - it takes 2 weeks (14 days) to establish a habit - some would say 21 days - and only 1 week to break it.
I like too many things and get all confused and hung-up running from one falling star to another till I drop. This is the night, what it does to you. I had nothing to offer anybody except my own confusion. ~ Jack Kerouac.
Isn't it nice to think that tomorrow is a new day with no mistakes in it yet? ~ L. M. Montgomery (1874-1942)